3.26.09 (edit 1).
Thu Mar 26, 2009 2:17 pm
It is apparent from mine and Garron's last posts that Eisley needs to be endorsed by some sort of sleep medication. Haha. I feel you Big Gar!
Also apparently, Garron and I are the only idiots in the band who blog, so either that means we are one of two things: 1. Completely pathetic or 2. Completely awesome. Let's go with the latter.
Ok, I am feeling "share'y", so If you are one of those people who hates it when people open up and share their personal lives online then please close this page and go stuff your face with something greasy that has at least 7000 calories 
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I just want to say... that I love you guys/girls (aka you devoted and loyal fans of Eisley's music). I know people say not to get all intimate on the internet and share your personal life because it will come back to make you look like a fool, and in the past (the not too recent past) it has for me. I fell in love and married someone and shared it online only to have it end badly.
Yeah, yeah... Over a year ago I went through a terribly painful ordeal (which was, yes, the "D" word; (Divorce)...I am now a sad statistic) and a lot of it got splashed about the internet, "who, what, why, when??".
Who cares?? It sucked @$$!!
But all of you we're super amazing and supportive and your emails REALLY honestly did help me a lot through those months (besides the top two things, obviously being, God and my family)... BUT, my own personal hell, surprisingly enough (and most shockingly to me) didn't last as long as I thought it was going to.
Because out of the blue, I met someone. Someone amazing that changed my life completely. It didn't seem like the best time to meet somebody, obviously, (as my life as I knew it was crumbling around me), but hey, it happened. It definitely happened. (For those of you who've questioned, No, Max had nothing to do with the end of my first marriage. I'd never even met or talked to Max before I was informed the divorce was going to go down).
I think part of the reason I have been fairly open about my relationship with Max and the love and respect we share for each other is because, I have dated a short string of guys in bands...(Only two before Max, and one of them who I married; neither are secrets, it's all over the place, ok)... I didn't CHOOSE these dudes just because they played "rock" songs for a living; I dated them because they appeared in my life's path and even though they both were detrimental relationships, I regret neither as I loved them both (despite the ultimately doomed nature of the love).
Both of those relationships made me who I am now and also led me to where I am now... and that is - with the most perfect guy on the planet (for me)' who I am now marrying and whom I will stay married to for the rest of my life, through thick and thin, no matter what happens or what we go through, for better or for worse, FOREVER... (most people seem to forget that "or worse" part, oddly).
I open up to you guys about this because I don't want my past failed relationships to dictate how I share my joy in the fact that I'm getting married in 8 days... 8 days!! I'm so happy.
Just because the first marriage was a flop it doesn't mean I screwed up and it doesn't mean I'm going to be afraid to talk about my life with you guys from now on.
I've had jerks try and make me feel stupid for sharing my life with "our (Eisley's) public", but after sharing some of what I was going through in '07 I've been able to talk to other young people going through the same kinds of things and that's really nice to be able to do. Anytime you can help someone - even if it's in the tiniest measure... a barely significant amount - it's still significant.
Life shouldn't be about skulking around and keeping everything locked up.
I'm not saying go out and blog and blab about every time you kiss your boy/girlfriend or you take a dump but life should be shared between us human beings. Now some people take it too far and use the internet as their portal to spew their jealously and bitterness into the world while they hide behind their PC screen... it's sad how cruel people can be, but HOOC ("who cares") about them. They suck and will hopefully grow up.
Plus...(back to sharing your life), Max is going to be around for the rest of my life guys and since we're going to be man and wife, married, "One"... If you want me, you get him now too.
And to those of you who have had actually had the nerve to email me and ask me about the validity of Max's religious beliefs... Max has been through some of the darkest things of anyone I've ever met in my life and come out on the other side one of the most amazing, humble, brilliant men in creation. And yes he is a Christian; you can talk to him about it yourself and he wont hesitate to share his beliefs with you. And no, I didn't "convert" him. Though Max was raised Jewish, he came to Christianity on his own before we even begun talking.
So, why am i writing all this... maybe it's just the fact that I've got such a life-changing day in front of me and you guys are always telling me what a big part of your life Eisley has been and I guess I just want you to know that you guys are a big part of ours too and always will be.
But just so you know, on April 4'th... I won't be thinking about you guys.
I'll be too busy being the happiest I've ever been in my entire life because I'll be marrying my best friend.
Love,
Sherri Kay